John Wall is shown on Dec. 13, 2021 in Atlanta, Georgia prior to tip-off at an NBA game. Kevin C. Cox/Getty Images

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John Wall is shown on Dec. 13, 2021 in Atlanta, Georgia prior to tip-off at an NBA game.
John Wall, a guard for the NBA’s Los Angeles Clippers, shared that he contemplated suicide in recent years after facing a series of emotional and physical struggles.
In early 2019, Wall underwent surgery to repair a ruptured Achilles tendon. Additionally, his mother and grandmother died a year apart from each other, all amid the COVID-19 pandemic.
“It’s the darkest place I’ve ever been in,” he said in an interview clip posted to Twitter on Monday. “At one point in time, I thought about committing suicide.”
“I thought about committing suicide. Tearing my Achilles, my mom passing, my grandma dying a year later, in the midst of COVID. Me going to chemotherapy, sitting by my mom taking her last breaths wearing the same clothes for 3 days straight.”


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Wall said he sat with his mother in chemotherapy while she took her last breaths. He eventually enrolled in therapy.
“Looking at all that, I’m like, if I can get through this, I can get through anything in life,” he said. “Everybody goes through something, you know. We all went through tough times. Nobody got it easy, but I don’t think a lot of people could get through what I went through.”
He added, “To me, to be back on top where I want to be and see the fans still want me to play, having the support from my hometown — just support, period — means a lot.”
Wall was selected by the Washington Wizards as the first overall pick in the 2010 NBA draft. He spent nearly a decade of his career with the team and was a five-time NBA All-Star during that time.
He tore his Achilles tendon in 2019 and could not play for 12 months. Despite that timeline expiring amid the NBA’s “bubble” season during the COVID-19 pandemic, he did not finish the season with the Wizards, and was traded to the Houston Rockets in 2020.
He did not play much during his time with the Rockets, due to a knee injury, and in 2022, he signed a two-year, $13.2 million contract with the Los Angeles Clippers. He is now averaging 20.6 points per game, 6.9 assists and 3.2 rebounds, according to the NBA.
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